ebb and flow

May 4, 2010

“Unlike humans, wolves do not deem the ups and downs of life, energy, power, food, opportunity as startling or punitive. The peaks and valleys just are, and wolves ride them as efficiently, as fluidly, as possible. The instinctual nature has the miraculous ability to live through all positive boon, all negative consequence, and still maintain relationship to self, to other.”   –women who run with the wolves,  by clarissa pinkola estes, phd

love. it confuses people. it confuses both those who are falling deep into it and those watching it happen from a distance. sooner or later those who are lost in the boon of love are challenged by others to reframe or reshape that love into something that suits them better. the quote above reminds me that, for humans, to ebb and flow is life. my heart hurt a little recently. i felt like little bruises were left on my heart. in processing my experience i cried a little, i ran a little, i wrote a little and i remembered who i am a little. the bruises began to shrink and my breath returned to me.

i spend a lot of time alone. i love to write, express, ponder and curate my emotions. as i get older, more time is spent here, in this  contemplative world. i found some pictures i took a few weeks back. i was driving home from my grandmother’s house when i noticed we were between rainstorms and the wind was picking up. i was right by the beach knew i had to stop. these photos speak to me in ways i can’t communicate in words. it is moments like these that heal the unintended bruises that life presses onto your heart.